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I bought a lot of things yesterday, and I'm wondering whether this was really such a good idea. I'm in that headspace after buying something where I'm deciding whether or not it was the right decision. 

I tend to be more of a saver than a spender. So having spent money on several different things yesterday feels a little bit weird. I got an online party game, because that's how we connect these days. I bought them because spending time with people is something I want to invest in.

I also bought some take-out to share with my girlfriend, because I wanted to have a nice night in. I bought some stuff online to keep me occupied at home (video games and such). None of those things are unreasonable, so why do I still feel a twinge of guilt?

These are all good reasons to buy things! I had these reasons before I committed to buying anything. These aren't arguments I've come up with after the purchase to feel better (which I have definitely done before). So what's my problem? Maybe I've become so used to reducing my spending that I have become unable to spend. Except, what's the point of having money if I'm never willing to let it go?

I think my issue is that it felt like a bit of a splurge and I don't want to end up having a problem when it comes to online shopping. I look at the things I bought and I wonder if my money could have been better spent. When the money is sitting in my account I know it could be used for anything, there are infinite possibilities. When money is converted into a single item I tend to look at that thing and weigh up its value against its cost.

Over time, I'm starting to accept that having a bit of a spending spree was actually okay.